lost consistency

little promises in my calendar

Things have been shifting and shaping for me in different and exciting and sometimes confusing ways. Some of my consistency practices have lapsed and I’m working to realign, to start again, to be okay with it all and enjoy the process, even when it’s winding and long and frustrating.

I spent more time watching somebody somewhere on HBO than I meant to this weekend, which means I didn’t organize my home studio space, which means that I’m still feeling blocked by the chaos in the corner. Looking at the mess of my art supplies made me wonder what else is blocking me from getting where I want to be, to a place that feels just slightly out of reach. 

How do I refocus when I’m feeling frayed?

I don’t have an answer, but I do have a place to begin - a focusing of my time and a setting of my schedule. A time to swim, a time to clean, a time to sit and write these words to you, a time to work on a new offering I’ve been dreaming up for this newsletter, a time to write a cover letter so I can keep working toward my therapy practice. If I don’t set it in my calendar, my attention turns wayside, so I’m filling up my days with my tiny tasks, little promises to myself. I deserve it.

May we all start again when we need to, and be easy on ourselves in our process.

I’ve been mostly off social media lately, so I’ll be sharing more here each week :)

I’ve been reading Atomic Habits and am very curious about this book. We’re going to see You Hurt My Feelings at BAM this week and I’ve been swimming laps at the local YMCA. In the mornings, I’ve been making cold press juices and snacking on blueberry lemon scones. My favorite tank top is finally back in olive and I’ve been eyeing some cute vintage on Noihsaf. 

A PRACTICE IN LISTS
With all my interests and a craving for learning new things that I can never seem to quench, my to-do lists are long and winding and I fear my wish to do so much is causing me to lose ground in them all. So in hopes of making everything a little more in reach, I’m paring down and organizing my lists. Recently, I sat down and wrote it all out on paper: a list for summer (before it slips away) split into work goals and personal ventures. In an attempt to embrace routine, some goals are repetitive in nature and all will be slotted into my calendar, tiny daily promises to myself.

Here’s my list for summertime fun while I’m in the city -

• at least three lazy beach days

• sew lots of pillows for my new daybed

• one fort greene park picnic every week

• lap swims three days a week

• lots of movie dates at BAM

• spend one afternoon hiking upstate

• make a lamp! (vibe inspo - or maybe something more playful)

What’s on your list for the summer season?

I’m working to create a more regimented and scheduled space here each week and am excited to announce a new offering for paid members in the next couple of weeks, stay tuned :) and thanks for being here through it all xo